• Letter To Myself: I Think I Need To Grow Up Now

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    I’m turning 21 in June and I really feel like I need to grow up. And to stop letting my anxiety get in the way. I wanted to write this post as a little letter to myself to stop being such a baby. And actually grow up and do some things I need and want to do in life. I’ve put a few things on hold due to my anxiety and wanting to wait for the right time. But in theory there is no better time than now, I guess!

    Do you ever have that moment when you just reflect on things that have been happening in your life and feel like you need to change things? I need to stop blaming my anxiety for getting in the way of things and stop making excuses for myself.


    Most people are shocked when they hear I’m in my 20s and still haven’t started to drive or have passed my test yet. Most of the people went straight into driving as soon as they turned 18 but I didn’t and have wanted to wait until I felt like I was ready. I still don’t feel ready yet but hopefully within the next 5 or so years I will and will finally learn to drive.

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    I know most people will be shocked to learn that I haven’t lost my V yet. I’ve only ever had one remotely serious relationship and that was almost 5 years ago. I was in my mid-teens and the guy I was with was quite childish and in the end it just didn’t work out and I’ve been single ever since – and still looking. I feel like I want to wait and lose it with someone who really does love me and we’ve been in a stable relationship for a while.

    I’ve not been the type of person to sleep with people I hardly know or with someone I’ve only known for a little while, I want it to mean something as you only lose it once – call me old fashioned!


    I’ve been in my current job for about 3 years and it’s definitely not something I want to do forever and its just for me to earn money and learn different things for now until I sort out my Photography career. Since starting this job I haven’t really had much of an opportunity to go out and take lots of pictures unless it’s from holidays etc so hopefully that will change during the next coming months.

    I’m really hoping I can change my job soon and hopefully ease myself into the Photography industry but I have no idea where to start as most photography firms won’t take anyone on unless they have experience working with other photographers.


    Living with a mental illness sucks and really does get in the way of your everyday life but I really need to stop using it as an excuse and making it stop me from doing things I want to do. I really need to overcome my anxious feelings and learn to embrace things as they happen.

    What do you need to improve on? Anything you wish you had done sooner? Would you write a ‘Letter To Myself’?